Based on my conversation with Ben about how setting just another goal doesn’t feel like the right way to break his cycle of good/bad/indifference. Enjoys like and the activities that make it up, but is lacking a singlular, motivating direction.
Knew it was “a setup” for something.
I advised NOT knowing the direction beforehand, using intuition primarily as the compass, following your instinct to create connection and “get out there” and do actual stuff in the world, etc.
Existential boredom shows up as a natural pain, like a sound that is only audible once the room (your life) is very quiet. It is a deep memory of potential for something more. A feeling of richness and aliveness that you wish to recapture, even if you can’t remember it, even if you don’t know how.
By following your intuition to resolve the pain, which is itself a compass, you are moving towards this better state.
And yes, it is extremely maddening to not know where you are going. To not even know where the rocket is going as you build it, as he said. Or even to know that you are building a rocket, and being prepared to change what it is you are doing at surprising indication.
It is not easy to go where you need to be when it is impossible to know where that is, or how it will happen.
But you always know the next step. And that is enough.
I don’t know why it is this way, but it is.
Practice the art of not knowing, and you will. Know. But only in retrospect. Generally, you will know only in retrospect…